it's very strange that i could not log onto my blog once in a while. and i found the visiting rate increased surprisingly. i was terribly annoyed although i should have had nothing to worry about. i was thinking it's my students entering from the QQ. i don't want to be recognized by my students, the present or the graduated ones. i'd like to have this blog to be free for me to say anything since nobody knows me or cares who i am.
therefore i don't want to be disturbed, or met in the real world.
i finally became one of the trainers in the preparing of the provincial speech contest for the English or non-English major, having undergone so many surprises, and drama. therefore it can be a torture to me to be supervised, or even listened to in my class by some hostile and mean colleagues.
i deliberately didn't prepare the first class, not knowing why, but just did it, because i thought they would listen and judge. i tried to follow their style, leaving them no space to criticize or speak ill of me. in the end, they decided not to come. then i finished my class sooner than what i had expected. Alas, it's an irony, wasn't it?
i know now they are focusing on the prizes of their own instead of the students. i tried to prepare better, and had the class this morning. it was much better in spite of their being late.
i know i should at first acknowledge myself and then be acknowledged by others. it's stupid to wait for appreciations from others who, to some degree, are having their own different thoughts and expectations. for students they want me to be gentle and kind but they may be contradictory because they may also want to improve.
i asked them to focus on the text structure and by analyzing their partners' speech, they improved very quickly.for my colleagues, ha, you know how colleagues deal with each other.
i hope this training program will proceed smoothly.
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